Wednesday, February 17, 2010
The Pit
Well here it is Feb 16th. Where have I been since December? In a dark pit. I'm ashamed to say that the things that life throws at me are not alway dealt with in faith. To compound and make things worse it causes an imbalance of my brain checmicals that throw me into the darkest pit of depression. I have dealt with depression for years and with God's help and medication to balance my chemicals I am a somewhat normal functioning person. But throw in life's "sudden" surprises and I go into a tailspin.
Dec. and Jan. were particularly hard. Not by any means close to the Haiti disaster, but trying none the less. Bert had been sick for three weeks with pneumonia, I was sick for two weeks. The grandkids have been sick off and on and made several trips to the ER. Dec was a month of no income (not the best month to not have a paycheck). Many friends and family are under attack in all areas of their lives. I was tired and felt a little beaten up, but handling it all well. Just asking God when the calm was going to come when "the storm" came. Literally. The storm that came through Phoenix Jan 21st caused our kitchen ceiling to fall. The tailspin I was in turned into a free fall.
I share this with you to tell you about a wonderful book I have been reading called, "Get Out of that Pit" by Beth Moore.
I'm on my way out of the pit with my feet planted on the rock, with God to steady me, because I'm not completely able to stand on my own. It is a daily battle.
I don't share this secret part of my life easily but maybe God can use this to help someone who feels like they are in a pit. "CRY OUT TO HIM" Love you all.
Dec. and Jan. were particularly hard. Not by any means close to the Haiti disaster, but trying none the less. Bert had been sick for three weeks with pneumonia, I was sick for two weeks. The grandkids have been sick off and on and made several trips to the ER. Dec was a month of no income (not the best month to not have a paycheck). Many friends and family are under attack in all areas of their lives. I was tired and felt a little beaten up, but handling it all well. Just asking God when the calm was going to come when "the storm" came. Literally. The storm that came through Phoenix Jan 21st caused our kitchen ceiling to fall. The tailspin I was in turned into a free fall.
I share this with you to tell you about a wonderful book I have been reading called, "Get Out of that Pit" by Beth Moore.
I'm on my way out of the pit with my feet planted on the rock, with God to steady me, because I'm not completely able to stand on my own. It is a daily battle.
I don't share this secret part of my life easily but maybe God can use this to help someone who feels like they are in a pit. "CRY OUT TO HIM" Love you all.
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